WRITER'S BLOCK: PAMPER YOURSELF

I am not back to my three times a week blogging — and I'm accepting this.  Going through the loss of my feline Nellie has been an emotional drain.  It's not as if life stops when someone you love dies.  And, it's important to carry on with what's necessary.

What's necessary for me are day to day responsibilities.  Emotionally what's necessary is journaling.  That has been going on daily  and has been a huge source of comfort.

Probably the last pieces of the "puzzle" regarding Nellie's passing has occurred with my trip down here to Florida.  I cried over he not being in the house when we spent so much time here on vacation.  And, I spoke with her vet to review the circumstances of her medical condition before she died.

The vet, a diplomate in feline medicine, consulted every kind of allopathic and alternative vet she could when her 22 year old cat (that's right… 22 years old) was so sick that she felt she would likely die.   And, the cat did in fact die.  And, the vet felt guilty that she could not save her.  At 22 years of age?   Even I knew that the issue was wanting to be in control and death.  And we simple cannot be.  So, I got it that not only are we not in control of someone's dying, but I was able to more deeply appreciate the wonderful life I spent with Nell.

So, whatever you're writing needs — I encourage you to be in touch with them, rather than to force yourself to do what's not natural.  Unless you have writing responsibilities where you need to meet deadlines, pamper yourself so your writing self has the opportunity to grow.